It's Not About The Food

I'm taking the opportunity while on this HCG diet to really look at my food addiction. I'm reading a new book called It's Not About The Food by Esther Kane. A woman's guide to making peace with food and our bodies.

In the book Kane asks some questions and asks the reader to really try and be honest when answering. I really want to get healthy so I am going to follow the authors advice and answer the questions as honestly and thoroughly as I can today.

Question 1 - How many diets have you been on in your life? Well I never really thought about it all at once. If I do I can think of lots of diets I've been on.

Atkins Diet

Sugar Busters

Birmingham Diet

Cabbage Soup Diet

Juice Cleanse

Hot Dog Diet

Weight Watchers

Vegan

RFA

No Sugar Diet

Exercise Bulimia

Eat Right All Week Bad on Weekends

Vegetarian Diet
No Eating after 7 Diet
HCG Drops
SlimPlexus
Various Diet Pills
HCG Injections

WOW that's a lot of diets. One would think I'd be eternally thin. But from what the book says diets are bad for you and you always gain the weight back.

Question 2 - Have any of them worked over the long term?
HELL NO - If they did work there would be no need to keep trying another one. When I think about it logically it pisses me off that I can be so stupid as to think that "this time" will be different. Why would it be different? I'm a binger and I over eat sometimes. I can't control the amount or I won't control the amount of food I eat so I just exercise more to get the weight off. That's called exercise bulimia in case you were wondering. How ridiculous and childish to think a diet would work.

Question 3 - Why do you diet?
Why does anyone diet. To be thin. To be pretty. To be beautiful. To be envied. To feel good about myself. To fit into cute stylish clothes. To be wanted and admired by my husband. To have other men notice me. To have women want to be like me.

YUCK!! Did I say to be healthy? NO!! Did I say to happy? NO!

Well I'm on this journey to let go of all those reasons. I won't lie I'd love to be able to eat anything and everything I wanted and be thin. But that's never gonna happen. There is no magic pill or genie out there that is going to make that outlandish dream come true.

So instead I hope to learn to love myself the way God intended for me to be. I want to be healthy both physically and mentally. I want to be at peace with my body and food. Is that a fantasy? I hope not and I have to believe it's possible to not think about food all day long. I have to believe that God wants me doing something else.

This food addiction is much harder then any other addiction I've dealt with. This is my core addcition. I am so ready to have God remove this obession. I heard in a meeting today that I can't expect God to remove myfood addiction if I am still actively abusing food. I have to be entirely ready to have it removed. I have to trust that God will provide. I have to trust that God will not let me suffer if he removes my food addiction. I think I can believe that, right? I mean God wants whats best for me. God wouldn't let me suffer needlessly. I'm all afraid I won't ever get to eat a brownie again or pizza. That's not God's plan. I have no idea what God's plan is. I'm sure it is better than I can even imagine.

I have decided to let go and let God be in charge of my food. I surrender. 

And it feels good.