Half Way There

Its day 15 of the diet. I won't lie I'm starving right now. At least that's how I feel. Mind you I did a cycle class this morning and played two sets of tennis. I'm not really suposed to exercise on this diet but I wanted to see my friends and cycle and I love playing tennis on Thursdays it's ALTA.

I've lost 10 lbs. More or less depending on whose scale you use. Either way I'm losing weight. But more importatly I'm losing inches. I'm happy about my progress but I am sick of eating 500 calories. I'm bargaining in my head.....I promise to eat right if I can just eat. I swear I won't binge again. I've learned my lesson and I will eat healthy from now on.

History however shows that I find it hard to eat healthy so what makes this time different. Well for one I'm actaully learning more about my eating habits. I'm reading books on eating disorders. I'm paying attention to what I eat and learning what is good/bad for me. Bottom line if I use food for anything other than nurishing my body I'm going to gain weight. Instead of using food inappropriately I need to look at my feelings and deal with them. Deal with life with motherhood with volunteering with being a wife with everything!!

I'm starting to cave but thank God I have Nick here doing this with me. I just want to eat normally. I keep telling myself I spent $400 and I have to see this through. Only 30 days. I can do anything for 30 days. One Day at A Time.

I wrote this post on the afternoon of September 5, 2013 but got interrupted by motherhood. I'm publishing it on Friday September 6th.