Ignore the Number

I'm am on a high right now and I'm sure it's partly because of the number on the scale. And I know better than to let that number determine my mood. But it still does. One day hopefully it won't matter what the scale says and my happiness/mood will all depend on how I feel physically instead of how I look. I'm learning throughout this whole journey to stop judging myself and to stop being so critical. Geez I'm human, right?

So let's see, on Tuesday I was up a 1/2 pound and you would have thought I had gained a ton of weight. It pissed me off. What really pissed me off is that I'm barely eating anything and injecting HCG in my belly I should be losing. I mean come on starving myself one would think I'd lose weight. Ok so I'm missing the point. I fell off the "big picture" wagon. The number doesn't matter. Anyway I ate so so on Tuesday. I actually ate 900 calories which in reality is so little but on the HCG protocol it's 400 over my daily allowance. Whatever I thought. I'm was so sick and tired of this damn diet.

Then on Wednesday morning I lost and was finally under 130! You would have thought I'd won the lottery. I was so psyched. I was in a great mood yesterday. I stayed on protocol and ate only what was allowed. So was it because I was down or because I've finally turned a corner on Day 21. This has been a long hard road of ups and downs. Whatever the reason I am going with it and hanging onto this mood/attitude. I know it will change. Right? This to shall pass.

So being the over achiever I can be and obsessed with what I'm doing I've been watching videos and reading about the HCG diet. I found this one girl who calls herself the HCGChica and has lots of Youtube videos documenting her journey. I came a cross something called the California Kicker which is supposed to help boost your metabolism and help you lose weight.

So guess what I did?

I tried it this morning. HOLY MOLY!! It's 8 ozs of hot water half a lemon and cayenne pepper. I read different recipes for the amount of cayenne but I used 1 tsp. WOW!! It was hot and spicy and I could barely get it down. But I did!! I'm determined that way. We shall see what it does. It didn't feel good in my stomach either and took a few minuets to stop burning. I feel fine now.

So this morning two girl friends are coming over to have an HCG roundtable discussion with Nick and I. One I'll call Sweet T and the other Lady Red. Both started the HCG diet after Nick and I but we are all in it together and supporting each other. Sweet T hit the ground running and lost quickly but has slowed and is pissed and hungry. Lady Red just started the other day so it's still early. We're gonna talk this morning about the Cali Kicker and other stuff.

Should be interesting.