Focusing on you is so much easier than focusing on me. Pointing out what I think "you" need to do to improve your life is so much easier than asking myself what "I" need to do. Why is that? Keeping track of others shortcomings is second nature for me. I assume it's because I grew up learning how to judge others. I don't remember my parents outwardly judging others but what I do remember is my father expecting me to be "perfect." In order to be "perfect" I must have learned to judge others so that I knew what not to do. It really doesn't matter "why" I judge, the fact is that I do and I want to stop. We are all on a journey and we all come from different backgrounds and have different needs and wants. Loving others and accepting them just as they are is the answer to my judgement. I can recover and I can believe what I want to believe even if you believe something different. My recovery isn't tied to what you think.
I am worthy of love. I am ok. I am on my own journey. I do enough. I am enough. I am not better than you or less than you. We are all the same. Our personalities may be different but inside we are all the same. Love and understanding is all that is required for me to be ok with you (and with me).
I would guess fear is behind my judgement. One acronym for fear is face everything and recover. Keep the focus on myself. I have plenty to focus on, I don't need to focus on you.
Today I will live and let live. I will stand for myself but not against you. I will accept you just the way you are today. I will focus on me and my recovery. All is well. My higher power will show me the way. I just need to ask. Then I relax and do the next right thing. If I make a mistake, I forgive myself and I ask again. I begin again. I choose again. I keep moving forward. If I hurt someone, I make an amend. If someone hurts me, I forgive. I don't take things personally. No one is out to "get" me. It's ok.
Everything is ok.
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